I know there is a road ahead of me even though I can’t see it.  I just have to keep walking the direction I am and I will see what is at the end, but not yet, there is still too much to do.  I may stop and get distracted by something life puts on the side of the road but that doesn’t mean that I have stopped.  I try not to look behind me as much anymore, all it does is waste time.  It is impossible to turn around and go the other way, what is behind me has already happened and to an extent it has paved the road that lies in front of me.  I get frustrated that the sun blinds 90% of my vision but I know that exploring the unknown is the whole point of even walking in the first place.  The things I have seen and left behind me are memories while the things that I can’t see are the future that has been destined for me.  One step at a time, feet forward and eyes straight ahead of me I continue onward.  Just as I had no idea what was ahead of me 20 years ago I have no idea what the road ahead holds in store for me but thankfully most of my fear of the unknown has become an insatiable hunger to know more.  Sometimes I do stop and enjoy the roses and sometimes the roses aren’t enough so I dig for the seed or maybe even what is beyond the seed.  These obsessive compulsions to learn as much as I can have interrupted my walk and it will effect what I may not ever discover in the future but balance is all part of nature and regrets are as worthless in the cosmic scheme of the universe.  Just as everything in the universe is in motion, so to are we all.  Every one of us walks down a road, not this particular road, but a road none the less and this journey is our entire essence, our entire reason for being and even though our time on this earth is measured in minutes, hours, days, and years every step we take makes us who we are.  Not being able to see what lies ahead gives us the motivation and desire to see what is at the end.  I used to spend a lot of time looking back instead of moving forward and I have promised myself to stop wasting time on things that are already done and start looking toward the future.  That new found anticipation of what lies ahead has begun to blind me because my ever peaked curiosity keeps making me stare directly into the light to catch a glimpse of my future thus making me stumble vision-impared, baby step by baby step ahead but it’s much better than standing idle staring at the darkness of what already was.  Sooner or later I will put on sunglasses or avert my eyes.    I am afraid but afraid in a good way, no matter what happens from now until the end of this road I call life, I can be content in knowing I was moving forward not backward………………PEACE!!!!!!