This is the second time I'm writing this blog, the first one didn't upload for some reason and I already forgot 90% of what I was going to say. This picture was taken on an abandonded little bus, of course it's me. I had to do the pretentious, smug "artisitc" self portrait for effect. I am neither smug, pretentious, or an artist, I'm simply someone finally having fun doing something. I find it ironic that I'm on a little bus because I was only one more traumatic head injury away from having to take one to school as a child. When I was younger the doctors suggested to my mom that I wear a helmet, I could just imagine pulling up to school in the little bus and getting off with my brand new bike helmet strapped firmly to my fragile skull. Don't get me wrong I have nothing against those that do ride the little bus, I love everyone and think we are all special, I'm just trying to figure out the implications such a scenario would have caused for me growing up. I wasn't a very popular kid as it was and I never really cared what others thought of me but things sure would have been different. I had a horrible last decade and never thought I'd be in the spot I am now. I spent ten years drinking myself to death and now that I feel like I have a purpose to live I'm enjoying every minute of it. I have finally found something that I truely enjoy doing and I am very surprised I feel so comfortable sharing it with all of you. My best friend said I need to showcase my comedic side and I do agree with him, and plan to soon but right now I'm still trying to find myself and the groove I need to be into. It was his influence that honed and sharpened my sarcastic and comedic side, without him I would have grown up bland and humorless so I do owe it to him. A couple of years ago I began this journey of self-discovery and self-worth and though it's taken a while I can finally start to say that I am feeling better. I can look in the mirror now and see someone other than a worthless drunk, I am becoming a real person and it's making me feel things and experience things I never imagined. I'm not doing this to become rich and famous (although I won't complain if that happens), I'm doing this to show myself and anyone else that sees this that change is not only plausible, it's possible if you really want it. Together we can grow and mature as a community of friends and family with the power to not only change our lives but the world as well. I'm driving this little bus on the road to self-discovery and you are all free to hop on if you think you are ready. Helmets optional.